Some like my *sister* sue will stay with you forever and you just know that no matter what.. No matter how long between a phone call or email or a visit.. That they will and are always there.
Others its pretty clear why they came into your life and in some cases why they left..
But is it ever to late to reconnect with that old friend? And are their regrets by the person who caused them to leave?
My mother had two failed bad marriages.. My dad and looser number 2.. Why she stuck it out and tried so hard to make it work reguardless of what they did to her or us girls, there were years of excuses on why she stayed and why they did what they did.. Yeah mom seeing the looser kick you in the head was surely just your fault somehow.. Yes he was an awesome man when he wasn't lost in a bottle.. Whatever you want to believe and whatever makes you feel better about your choices *rolls eyes*
But than... Than there was Keith.. He treated you like gold.. Wouldn't fight or argue.. Would never raise a hand to you.. But it was him you kicked to the curb. Sure he wasn't perfect but show me one person who is..
He treated us girls like we were his own and embraced the roll of grandpa to our children as if they were his own blood relatives.
but yet this is the one you choose to toss out.. Why?
I kept in contact for a while with him and than so self absorbed in my own life.. I just one day stopped. What would I say at that time though? So I took a break never forgetting him.. The one man that gave mother what she claimed to always want a man who put her first and accepted her children as her own.
This year though.. aprox 6 years after he packed his car and headed back to Indiana.. I decided to write a letter..
But why do I feel like after so long I'm invading his life.. I'm just his ex-girlfriends kid.. Do I have that right to disrupt his life.. What if he is with someone new? How will she feel about a letter from me?
I don't want him to come begging mother for another shot.. But I do want to keep in contact with him. I know now that mother and him weren't meant to be.. He deserves happiness and I hope he has found it.. But at the same time we were such a huge part of his life..
I want to know he is doing good.. To know he wasn't and isn't forgotten.. To know he is still a big part of our life even though he isn't here..
The letter is sent.. In his hands by now I'm sure.. But I still wonder if I had that right to send it... I just wish him well.. Wish him happiness and wish he knew that we love him.
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