and just when the neighbors thought they had seen it all...

here comes lil ron and i carrying a blow up pool (good sized one too) down the road *lol*

today was shopping day *fun*.. NOT ~ honestly i think im one of the few people who hate to shop.. went and hit the normal 3 stores, pet smart for our clyde, walmart and than harris teeter which we just recently started to go to every other week (pay day) so that we can take some of there deals.. although the store isnt my *favorite* as it is still confusing and always leaves me wondering.. why would someone put chips and snacks and than have motor oil in the middle of the same isle?? but none the less they have some awesome deals that one just cant avoid ~ so i do go every other week to take up some of them deals!

anyways.. while at walmart my mom decided to pick up a blow up pool for her back porch. on the days that she has the kids (pretty much the only time she sees owen and gets to spend some time with him) she doesnt like to head down to the end of the road swimming area (aka little beach) because of the drunkards. i cant say i blame her either.. but she wanted a way for them to cool off and have fun at her house.. so she decided on this pretty decent sized kiddy pool for her back porch.

problem is, she had no way to blow it up. so that left me and little ron to take care of here at the house.. with mom living only around the corner and down the street, we opted to blow it up here and just *walk it down* when we were done. thinking that we had the cover of darkness and only two cars pass us on the road, we thought we had it made until we passed by zoey and chucks house (our down the street boxers) and sure enough zoey was outside with her owner who said *zoey.. come here zoey* as he walked closer to the street, looked at us and our big pool, laughed and said *im trying to get zoey in the house and your walking down the street with...... a pool *lol* just when i thought i had seen it all*

we avoided the long explination and just laughed it off ~ after that it was to moms house to get it set up on the porch .. a quick kiss and hug to wyatt and owen who are sleeping over tonight, and than off to the end of the road with ant killer to defeat the ants that keep bugging my baby while he is down there during the week when we are all swimming.. got that taken care of after a breif but wet walk in the down pouring rain (good thing too this ant killer needs water to work better) and than off to the boat ramp to check things out there before returning home ~

wow what a night!

rons working again tonight, another long shift *pouts* i hate these long night time shifts he has ~

im kinda lost though, i want to talk to him a bit more about seriously working on having baby number 4.. some days he seems all for it but other days i kinda still question if he wants to try as hard as i do.. after having no luck for so long getting preggo with wyatt and owen.. and having so many years of trying.. i just want to get moving on it but yet i dont want ron to think im some spastick sperm crazed woman kwim?

the truth is im very happy with our family and our 3 boys, but we had decided from day one that we wanted 4 kids, we didnt know that we would have so much trouble having a baby so now that we are set on having number 4 i just want to actually try harder to have it rather than to just *take it as it comes* im sorry but i just dont have another 6-8 years to do that with kwim?

i suppose i will figure out how to start the convo with him again to see where his mind is at and what he wants to do.. i guess im just scared of him saying that he would rather just *take it as it comes* because i know its not possible to do that kwim?