life *argh*

as normal life likes to toss stuff at me .. im seriously beginning to wonder if i have a *kick me* sign on my back or something.. its deff getting annoying to say the least!

looks like its time for me to step back from my sister again, this wont be the first time but im getting to old for the petty bullshit and drama that happens after a while of talking ~ i mean im way to old to have to deal with the crap.

im sorry if you dont approve of my life, how many kiddos we have, or where we live, sometimes in life shit happens and if you dont understand that life is sometimes just what it is and we have to do what we have to do than oh fucking well kwim?

soo i have decided im going to live for what i want out of life.. starting with another baby. Ron and i have always wanted 4 kids, we have faced years of TTC issues and it took us a long 8 years to welcome our second son... than another long 6 years to have our little man.. but we do not have them long years of waiting left.. so we need to get serious and get *busy* haha so for me that is goal number one ~

goal number 2 to get out of this house.. dont get me wrong the inlaws are great and i know that no matter what we will always have a roof over our head and a place to call home, but we are both so done ~ so we are making changes to make that happen and the sooner the better but no more backtracking or whatever.. this mama is full speed ahead and although we have some issues with our school district and where we can live (neither of us will put our kids eductation on the back burner for a cheaper rental.. sorry just not even an option) it will just take patience and a bit of time to find a place big enough, affordable, and what not.. i can deal with that if we have a goal in place to work towards...

i think thats it for now, but i tell you what.. i refuse to allow our happiness to be *crushed* or whatever to please someone else..