i wish for once i could get the ttc brain out of my head.. i hate that ron has to work this weekend (thurs-sun) and know that O will probably be friday (cd16 like normal) and here i will be stressing getting in all the bd'n *argh* i wish for once i could just *let it go* and not stress the best and worst times for bd'n and calculate our *chance* of success this cycle etc.. but the truth is, once you have gotten to the point of knowing to much and there is that baby that you so badly want to complete your family before your to old and shriveled ... ah the loveliness of things that run through my head month in and month out.. the things i think about and things i worry about and the pending doom i call the *hag* that will be right around the corner.. the questions of *will i ever see another BFP*?
yes ttc brain is a curse.. but the information out there is endless and wondrous at the same time..
i just wish i could get off this roller coaster.. this journey that seems to have no end.. just one more time ~ am i asking for to much?
but at the same time.. i love my boys so much and i know if i never do see that BFP again that my life is full and lucky and i have these 3 wonderful great boys that i love more than anything else in the world..
i know i have a hubba who is the best, the man i will grow old with and the one who totally completes me and gets me all at the same time.
i know im blessed, i know im lucky.. i know im loved.. and i know that life has nothing but greatness for my future.. that each day is irreplaceable .. each memory worth more than all the riches in the world..
