6 more days until test day two *smiles*
a huge part of me wants to believe this is actually it.. that maybe if that last test was a regular line one that i would have seen a glimmer of hope.. but so much of me is being realistic that even though it was a digi test that has a high number for the hcg.. it still should have been positive.. shouldnt it have been?
temps looking good.. still way above cover and just being nice and perdy.. but i will wait it out.. only a few more days.. 6 is such a small number in the context of 19 cycles of ttc this time around.. nearly 8 years of ttc between little ron and wyatt.. 6 years of ttc between wyatt and owen.. yes 6 days is a very small number!!
so wait i will.. and hope.. and dream but still maintain my realistic'ness of it all.. the possibility that the hag could be playing some horrid trick on me!
but can you imagine.. after thinking nothing but the worse when looking at that *not pregnant* digi test only to a week later seeing those pretty pink lines?? wow what an amazing end to this roller coaster of completing our family of four kiddos that would be.
one thing life has taught me.. is to always hold onto hope.. so thats what i will do.. i will hold onto the hope and never let it go!
