the truth is i hate hate hate (did i say hate) seeing bfn's.. with a passion.. its depressing.. your hag is late and yet there is no bfp to see in sight.. so what to do what to do.. thats where i am now.
funny how you dream of having a good cycle, dream of seeing rising temps and what not when they should be dropping and than when it shows up on your chart.. you cant help but be so scared of the possibility of it just being another fluke cycle and all your going to see is a bfn.
i have one test left in the house.. a digi i was saving for when i saw those 2 pretty pink lines..but none the less it is the only one in the house for at least another week (gotta wait till payday im sure you know how it is) and yet.. i want to pee on it but i dont.. i dont want to waste it.. throw another X amount of dollars in the trash can just to see another bfn.
why does it have to be so hard to decide what to do? i guess in the morning we will see how things go.. see if we are headed to another cycle or not.. see what my temp brings me when i wake up..
the wait sucks.. the unknown sucks and the fear of poas sucks! i seriously dont get how so many can be addicted to peeing on sticks.. i dont get it.. i doubt i ever will. getting all hopeful and than *bam* reality smacks you in the face as one pink line missing its twin that your dying to see.. or looking at that digi that you want to see say *pregnant* only to see the word *not* before it.. ack!
all i can do is wait it out and see how i feel in the morning i suppose.. until than the suspense will continue to bug me and i suppose bug you now to *haha*
