so i was stoked, he was going to be home, got my bbt and been temping like a champ, taking my prenatal vitamins .. and than *poof* in the matter of a few hours i was told *sorry hes going out of town*
now part one that pissed me off is that NO ONE asked him if he could. not one person, apparently the *powers that be* called the old guy and asked him if ron would go and the old guy just took it upon himself to say yes. the powers that be never once called and asked ron, no voice mails on his phone etc.
well i get told by the old religious one that he is going to be leaving tomorrow (well today for those reading this) and i was beyond livid!
okay now aside from the baby making side of things we can not afford for him to keep going out of town.. its soo screwing us up. we get paid and we are off to pay our bills, do our shopping ect and get caught up only to turn around a few days later and have to borrow money yet again for him to go out of town. than the same thing all over again, we pay our bills and get everything taken care of only to be stuck having to borrow money again. its FLIPPING CRAZY.
of course you just cant seem to explain that to the old guy or the religious one, oh hell no.. their answer is *well we will loan him the money* yeah thanks your such a champ.. do you not understand the words coming out of my mouth?? geesh!!
so ron told the old guy loudly for the millionth time why we can not afford for him to keep going out of town.. the response *oh* yeah *oh* whatever (insert me rolling my eyes wildly)
not to mention im sick of him being gone for 2/3/4 days a week.. now while the powers that be might be thinking how gravy it is that their spouse is gone more than home and the old religious one likes being alone, that is so not me.. i want my husband home not 2 hours away.. im soo done with it and so is ron.
of course he left today at 5:30pm and is out of town until monday.. im keeping my fingers crossed that i O on cd16 like i think i do and we will actually have a smidgen of a chance this cycle.. other wise i will just have to deal with it now wont i?
well since we are alone again, i took the kiddos to dinner tonight. went and picked up mc donalds for owen and than taco bell for everyone else. than we went over to a small picnic area on the side of the road (right on the water) in swansboro. cute little picnic area..
the boys ate and than played for a few minutes. Owen learned how to roll down a hill thanks to his brothers going all out to show him, i think it still needs a bit of work but he was having a ball learning! once the kids were done rolling down hills, running and playing.. we walked the wooden board walk and looked out at the water.
i found it interesting to learn that the island out there is only partly privately owned, i had understood that it was privately owned completely but apparently over half is owned by the state parks and rec people and its primary use is to dump oyster shells for the oysters.
once we were done walking around on the wooden board walk we headed home and it was time to get homework done (i slacked big time tonight with wyatt) and than some tv, showers and bed..
now im just left sitting up, knowing i need to make wyatts lunch and shortly get myself to bed and knowing that i will be alone .. why are nights the worst?
