anyways.. i was upset when he left as was my hubby and our oldest son, wyatt was so young he dont remember him and owen didnt even exist yet.
i had kept in contact with him, mainly me writing and him calling until life took over and i slacked big time.. by the time i was ready and able to write again i feared it had been to long.. to much time had passed so i put it off once again. until that is, right before christmas of 2009. i wrote to him, sent him a photo of the boys and updated him on life in general as well as letting him know that i was sorry for letting so much time pass.
needless to say i never got a response from him. i thought maybe i wouldnt, mainly because what if he moved on? i mean i hope he did dont get me wrong, i hope he found all the wonderful things in life that he deserves. but i just kinda wanted to keep in contact with him.. not because i wish him back with my mother (because i dont) but because for so long he was such a big part of my life as well as the life of my family.
but my question now is, do i write again or do i just *leave it be* and let him contact me anytime in the future if he ever wishes? do i write one more time explaining that i do not wish him back with my mother and maybe explain a bit clearer what my intentions are.. maybe adding a phone number this time? (last time i gave email and regular mailing address) or do i just let things lie..
i guess i will wait and see how i feel.. maybe sending one more letter to him and if that one goes unanswered just letting things end where they do. accepting it as another chapter of my life that is closed.
