cheesecake *yumm*

wyatt and i just got done making a cheesecake which is now spending 40 minutes in the oven before it has to be taken out and cooled down before eating, i think that will be the hardest part of all.. letting it cool *lol*
wyatt loves to cook and help cook, he has always been the one to drag out the cook books and insist we find something in them to cook.. maybe he will be a chef when he gets older *hmm* now thats an idea ~
owen woke up this morning with a boogie nose.. poor guy! i hate when my boys dont feel good and after last nights night terror i was hoping he would have slept in this morning but nope, even after a restless night, he was up before the buses came to get his brothers and although he did doze on the couch for a bit after they were gone.. he stuck to his schedule today for the most part, a short nap at around 2pm and than up and running with the best of them.
tomorrow ron and i are going to head to the jacksonville walmarts (the new one) we finally got our state return and number 1 on our list is to buy our tent! im so excited!! i am looking forward to many camping trips this summer even if they are just short weekend getaways. i cant wait for the boys to see the tent, i think they will be super excited!
not much really going on the last few days .. just the normal stuff i suppose.
as for this weekend, our biggest thing to do is go threw all of the boys toys *ack* wyatt has agreed to help me. which honestly is both so sweet and scary at the same time, normally i like to do it alone because its an awesome time to purge purge purge but with his help comes the argument that no we are not keeping the truck missing the tire etc.. ah the fun of it all.. but we will see how it goes this weekend with his help, he is really looking forward to it and reminds me daily that we are going to be doing it *lol*

somethings just not right..

the boys took off to mothers house this morning and now they are over on emerald isle walking a trail.. while im left home to do the wash and to wash the clyde.. something is just wrong about this whole picture!!
need to call the vets again tomorrow and have my clyde checked out again.. dunno what it is but again that mystery rash is back and im thinking not hives? but what do i know im not a vet..
is it possible he got bit by something, sure yeah i mean the back yard was looking like a jungle and according to the wildabeast the buggas were running while he was playing nascar driver on his mower but still.. again and so soon? we are giving him his benadryl (spelling) pills but they dont seem to be doing much of anything not that the vet gave us a huge timeline to be able to have them have any affect, she said within the first few hours..
we also de-bugged the back yard yesterday.. spreading bug killer all over the place. that was interesting in itself, of course it has to be something pet and kid safe so as we walked into our local lowes i started reading bags looking for warning labels etc. so im reading and reading and i find a bag that i couldnt find the label on so i asked a lowes employee (thats what they are there for right?) now i could have accepted the woman saying *i dont work in this department, let me call someone who can answer your question for you* i dont expect anyone to be an expert in every department and could have lived so nicely with that answer.. but no.. instead she decided to answer us ~
her answers i thought were quite entertaining.. at first she said *well i wouldnt feed it to him* yeah neither would i lady i mean seriously? what i need to know is when or if it is safe to allow my clyde and my boys back into the yard after spreading the chemical.. duh! so than she says *well i wouldnt do it when he is out there so you dont get it on him* again no shit!! thats not what i asked what i asked is when is an acceptable time after spreading this chemical around the yard to allow my clyde and my children back into the yard? but i was polite and thanked her as she walked away..
i finally found the recommendation by the manufacture and went about my business.. the manufacture suggested to wait at least an hour.. we waited over 12 hours *lol* now i just need to internet search for something that is completely safe and harmless to both pets and kids for bug killing in the yard.. thats my goal to find it if it even exists so that i can keep the yard bug free as much as possible.
that and the wildabeast is just going to have to play nascar driver more so than not or im going to get on the mower which im not allowed to touch and do it myself!!

saturday already

seems like the weeks are just flying by.
Ron and little ron were supposed to go conk (spelling?) hunting with *uncle* chris last night but he changed his mind yesterday afternoon saying the waters were to rough, the tides were wrong and the wind was blowing.. not sure where the winds were blowing and the waters were rough because all was slick and calm here but ah well it was probably just him procrastinating on getting it done. there was some disappointment with little ron who had been looking forward to going but after finding him sound asleep in his bed at 11pm i suppose it was good that they didnt go.
this morning ron and little ron headed out in little rons boat for some casual fishing and time together. dont think much was caught, nothing was brought home but ron did text me a few pictures of little ron and his shark.. why is it i cant get him to smile in a photo and normally have him running all mad when i drag out a camera but let him have a shark in his hand and he is all smiles? needless to say i finally have a few new photos of him to post on facebook and maybe i will work on creating a new signature for myself since the only photo i have of my biggest boy is him from last summer!!

not much else going on for today so far.. just hanging out around the house and waiting for mother to show up with wyatt and owen so i can get wyatts shoes on him so they can run up to walgreens .. hes a total barefoot boy and given the chance to never have to wear them he wont.. which is why he ran out the door today without his shoes *lol*

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we headed to the hundred dollar store this morning to pick up a few things, didnt need much this week which was a good thing, stocking up at sams seems to be working so far because our between week shopping was very low.
of course my movie gremlin was with me and although i have to give him tons of credit on how he tends to stick to the $5.00 movies.. he also just couldnt pass up the deal on avatar which was on sale today for only $15.. not that i could complain about him buying it after all i got my opks which is pretty much just peeing on money if you dont get your bfp in the end.. now if you do, than they are worth gold but yeah until than its just pissing money...
anyways.. we got home and got owen settled and decided to watch avatar since the computers were running slow. sadly though i cant tell you how the movie ends because at some point i was laying across the bed all snugged with my owen and was drifting in and out of sleep.. so i will have to make the time to watch it again so that i can at least see how it ends.
wyatt had his field trip to the local grocery store today, i know it sounds like an odd kind of a field trip but they are learning about the food pyramid and insects this week.. dont ask me how the two go together but somehow they are.
they have a lot of neat stuff going on in their classroom this week.. each student has a caterpillar that they are hoping will turn into something. earlier in the week
he told me that he thought his was dead but its not because we got to see it at school when we went for our parent teacher yesterday. they also have a few eggs in an incubator to see if they will hatch or not and a few more select bugs in different parts of their *life cycles* that they are waiting to see come out .. exciting huh?
i havent spoken to mother since yesterday but oh well.. im still a bit ticked that i was screamed at for no reason and that she was rude to the bug guy.. just gets me when there are so many others with real stresses in life that have to deal with real problems and bigger issues than her little *oh the bug guy showed up out of kindness to see if he could spray my house*
sometimes i wonder if she prefers it when us girls dont talk to her regularly.. maybe she just isnt fully equipped with that parenting gene that so many of us are.. i dunno im just always left wondering when it comes to her.
little ron has gone down the past few days and spent some time with her.. but im not sure what all they are doing. i know yesterday she took him out to dinner .. she had asked if wyatt wanted to join them but he said no which i think is a good thing, sometimes i wonder if she can handle him at all on her own.. its not that he is a bad kid because he isnt, difficult sometimes but more curious. i struggle with how people perceive and treat wyatt a lot of the time .. more times than not unfortunately.
and its all because they expect him to be little ron but he isnt. hes going threw this stage now where commercials tell no lie.. im always being told why we need this product or that one or whatever.. but to just take 2 minutes and see the world through his eyes is simply amazing. to see his imagination at its best and to know his heart.. to just sit and listen to him babble on.. etc
why cant people see him the way ron and i do? why cant they accept that he isnt little ron .. he will never be little ron..???
why is it when he talks about a cartoon or a video game or anything that people dont put the same interest into it that they do what little ron is interested in? i cant tell you the countless times he has tried to show someone something and been told *i dont care about that* but why not? why not care what he has to say no matter what its about?
i sit and listen to little ron tell me about fish, not my *thing* but its his and i try to be involved.
just as much as i try to be involved in wyatts interests and owens too.. i guess with me im just mom and in mom mode you have to be interested or show interest in your childs interests.. where others will pick and choose favorites and what they want to hear about.. i dunno ~

yesterday and today

yesterday was another busy day.. one that found me falling asleep on the couch at some time unknown to me and being woken up my my hubba at a bit after midnight .. yes im wore out but the weekend is not near me yet so wore out i will probably stay, this so far has not been the week opening up opportunities for me to fall asleep for a few extra hours after buses run in the morning due to my little monkey waking up and being fully ready to start the day.
we headed to jacksonville yesterday morning to go pick up mothers new (to her) durango.. and than while ron headed home, her and i headed to sams club so she could pick up a few things. after that we headed to the house to drop off the cold stuff and than straight up to the car wash for a quick wash off of her new car before having to have it parked in the driveway for the boys to check out in detail when they got off the buses.. after that it was to morehead city to bed, bath and beyond to pick up a huge umbrella for mothers back porch and than finally after installing it home..
now im happy, thrilled that mother loves her new to her suv but my god how many times do i have to hear how *perfect* it is? how pretty it is? i was so over hearing it by the 50th time it wasnt funny. but i know its new, so i understand she is happy and excited and all that jazz.. and i know it has more features than she has ever had in a car new or not.. and i will even admit that some of the never had features, just really shock me.. like i thought everyone has had one of them remote door unlock things.. but apparently not *lol*
now the reason for the umbrella for her back porch is at the end of last summer we acquired a small pool from some folks in the neighborhood, they were giving it away because their grands grew out of it and they had decided to just get a membership to the aquatic and wellness center.. so we jumped on the deal (can you really beat free even when its only 10 foot wide and 3 foot deep?) .. unfortunately we have raked our heads over and over again on where we could set it up this year and we cant think of anyplace here to set it.. we had considered on the porch but there isnt enough room, the driveway is gravel and i can so see holes in an instant not to mention the only space in the driveway would block boats going in and out.. we had considered in the back yard but again.. where? sure the yard is a great size but your dealing with on the grass and im not sure how clyde would do with it out there and this is one of them pools where if the side goes down, your in for a hurting water bill wise because it will continue to drain until there is little to no water left.. and lastly the grass that could grow through it would be horrible. weve had a pool before with a soft bottom here and grass was straight threw it by the end of summer..
so the answer to all is mothers back porch where it will fit just fine but we have to worry about her zillions of pine trees (i think she is trying to grow her own forest) which is why we bought the umbrella, it wont cover the whole pool but a good huge portion of it.
my only concerns are when she decides to get in a mood, the boys will be out the pool to swim in, not that we havent survived every summer for the past 17 years without a pool but still.. we have the sound at the end of the street that the guys like to swim in but still.. i guess that could be our back up. its just gotten so bad down there in recent years with the neighborhood drunks its not funny.. weekends are a total no go at the end of the road because of how bad it gets down there..
im sure you will still see us from time to time down there but not as much as we used to be as long as we have use of the pool. plus if one kid dont feel like swimming they can watch a bit of tv or play a bit of xbox instead.. of course when i pointed that out to little ron he told me of last summer when mother had a smaller pool on her porch and how they were forced to go out there even if they didnt want to.. which is when i explained that i would be there and i dont have that rule.. if a kid dont want to swim why would you force them too? oh yeah because she expects all the grands to be the same ..
little ron loves outside, riding bikes, fishing, swimming, etc.. wyatt not so much.. and owen so far loves being outside.. my oldest nephew is one of the biggest book worms you will ever meet and my younger nephew is more like wyatt.. enjoys going out but not as much as little ron does..

as for today, today started off not good at all *blah* i hate when you wake up in the morning and its not long before you realize its not going to be a good day dont you?
first of all ron had been up since some ugly hour in the morning and by the time it was time for me to get up, he was ready to crawl back into bed.. this of course put a damper on our plans to run to walmart and get our shopping done *joy* but i do get he was super exhausted so shopping can wait until tomorrow after a hopefully good nights sleep for us both tonight.
than a bit later ron called me to tell me the bug guy was at mothers house. now please understand this is a great company price wise, they do their job well and the guy himself is super nice.. always smiling and in a good mood and loves to joke around and laugh.. not to mention a retired marine who worked with the old guy while they were both active duty..
anyways.. so i call and tell mother that he is there and i get my butt chewed by her *he better not be* well sorry but he is .. *they are supposed to give me notice.. * to which i said *well ron said they called but he didnt get the message until his o'dark hundred wake up and forgot to tell me they called when he laid down.. but no one told them to come or not*.. to which she ranted at me about him being there.. maybe im weird but ive got 3 kids and there are days that he walks into my disaster zone to find me in my jammies with my hair in a towel on my head .. he needs to be thankful i put a bra on real quick *lol* .. so why mother is freaking out on the phone with me i dunno..
finally i told her to just fire him if she was so unhappy with him being there.. i know what it is because i know our bug guy.. he was in the area and they are only here a few days a month.. he knew she hadnt said yes or no but as long as he had a minute thought he would stop to see if she wanted him to spray so that he could get her done without being late on the spray.. you have to understand while mother was in colorado we battled her huge flea problem and thats how our bug guy became hers as well.. we bombed.. we sprayed.. we did everything in our power to get rid of them and yet they were still there.. so yeah we needed the big guy out there and he came and concord her flea problem. which is why they are still calling ron instead of mother when its spray time.. even though she could have changed it she would rather have us take care of it for her *rolls eyes*
well ron called me a bit later and told me that he was on the phone with the bug guy when he went to the door and he said mother was rude to him saying *well you didnt tell me you were coming, shouldnt you have at least asked before just showing up* uh he was doing YOU a favor.. he was here and knew he wouldnt be back until later.. he offered to reschedule and she said *no your here you mind as well get it done* argh!! he tried to hand her his phone to talk to ron and she was rude about that saying *he already knows whats going on* excuse me?
so i called her and put her in her place.. told her to give him her number so they can call her directly because im tired of the bull.. i mean please! the guy went out of his way when he had time to spray her house even though no one confirmed it.. he felt *it doesnt hurt to ask* he offered to reschedule if the time wasnt right.. she refused so get off it already. plus it was just minutes before noon.. not like some horrid early morning hour.. and what is she doing anyway but laying around the house? nadda .. nothing.. ziltch!!

than the old guy and religious one had bad news come in and that started another drama filled few minutes *joy*
today is just one of them days!!
at least its now counting down till bedtime and than we can start over tomorrow. thats the positive thing about todays.. theres always a tomorrow and a start to a whole new day!

The Great Debate

no we arent talking anything *political* or even life changing.. the great debate this week.. WEEDS .. yes you read that right weeds..
weeds that as a child i have memories of walking through my mor-mors front yard and stepping on.. weeds covered in stickers and we arent talking about my little pony stickers either.. weeds that left you wanting to scream *oh shit* yes.. weeds!! weeds of the worst kind.. not weeds that leave you flowers or fuzzies you can blow all over the place .. these are just flat out mean sticky weeds that are no fun to run into when walking barefoot in the yard..
now what is the great debate about these weeds?? well apparently a few characters in the house i call home are considering them *cactus* yeah cactus and are threatening to refuse to chop them down ...
grant it the wildabeast seems to be on yard strike right now but after threatening to move monkeys into the back yard and have it deemed a jungle.. he went out yesterday and pretended he was part of the indy 500 on the riding lawn mower that the only ones allowed to touch other than him are the little ones who pretend its a huge tractor.. and im sure to our sweet owen it is.
of course as he was zooming around the yard on his indy car it was hard not to sit in the house and make jokes of bubba jay the infamous puppet of none other than jeff dunham who we all made jokes of *watching nascar and drinking beer*...
but back to the great debate...
anyways there are these huge weeds growing out front and they are threatening not to let us hack them down under the belief that they are some exotic cactus that just started growing wild in the front yard under the cedar tree.. i have a feeling that this is going to mean that we are going to have to intervene. even if it means dressing in all black and taking them out in the cover of darkness.. im sure that we could find someone to blame it on. the infamous cactus killers, maybe i can even tell them of the news story i read about them in the local paper a few days ago *hahaha*

mother got her new car !!

well new to her car anyway.. its really nice, and i know she is very pleased with her purchase so all is great *smiles*
we also ran and got owen new shoes which he needed.. unfortunately there isnt the widest selection in wide shoes for little ones so he ended up with a pair of tennis shoes that are looking almost identical to his last pair but the bonus, a free pair of sandles (spelling) for him too.. how are they free you ask, simple, the amount we saved on the shoes were the same price as the sandles so yeah we did good.. now lets just hope he lets me put them on his feet and will actually wear them *lol* he looked at me mighty weird at the shoe store when we tried them on him.. but im sure it will be no time before he realizes how simple and easy it is to slide them on ~
i must admit though, i am super tired.. i could easily lay down and take a few hour nap but i know that isnt in my future any time soon.. the bigger boys are on their way home from school now and should actually be here any minute plus owen is mr anti napper since he took a short one on the way home from jacksonville.. now i just got to keep him up and busy until bedtime.. and than its off to bed at a good decent time for us all tonight.
tomorrow mother wants to go for a ride somewhere but she isnt sure where yet *lol* i suppose we will figure it out when tomorrow comes huh?
well i suppose i best get off the computer for now.. its really close to when the buses will be running and owen is already perched at the front window looking for his big brothers to get home.. he gets so excited when its time for them to come home.

well i didnt get my *to do* list completed

but none the less we did get a lot done ~
ron and little ron headed to get something done on the boat motor (dont ask me i dont speak boat lingo) while i worked on waking up.. going to bed at 4am and getting up before i willingly opened my eyes on my own wasnt in my plans for today but it is the way it worked out..
took a while for me to get moving but still plenty of time to do all i wanted to get done..
headed outside and washed off the porch.. pollen is bad this time of year and has been for a while so everything is coated in that lovely shade of yellow/green dust that you would just love to go away.. watered my plants and was getting ready to get things straightened up and back in there place when the wildabeast informed me that he wanted to *do some work on the roof of the porch* before i put everything back, thats fine, it was still early afternoon so i could get it all done and than of course he decides to just *put it off* until another day.. great thanks appreciate it.. so now the plants are still in the yard and the porch is a mess.. but i cant really set things up until he gets his side of the job done .. after all i know he is only either going to use it as an excuse of why not to do it or im going to have to haul everything back off the porch so he can get out there and do his thing.. can we say annoying??

we did get the van washed and all pretty looking on the outside even though we kept getting told it was a waste of time to do, yeah well it might be a waste with the pollen still raining down but at least its jut not caking on top of each other over and over again.. im sure its a waste of time to vacuum the van when we are going to take clyde in it again as well but you know, it still has to be done ...
the guys also washed the boat, which needed a good scrubbing for the obvious reasons.. pollen!!

still on my *to do* list is washing my clyde, he needs it and i have to get it done soon because wyatt is getting in the shower at 8:30pm like it or not.. tomorrow is school and im looking forward to an early bedtime for the kiddos..

speaking of tomorrow, we are heading to jacksonville with mother to go look at the durango we found yesterday.. as well as gonna stop by a local car dealer that we went to yesterday because ron noticed there was a ford expedition out there, we already know they are closed on mondays but hey we can still window peek and decide if we want to come back to inquire on it more or if it isnt worth the further look into kwim?

than i think maybe tomorrow we are gonna run to payless to find owen some new shoes, not sure yet but his little feets are getting to big for his shoes.. i cant wait to see him tonight.. i love that mother wants to have the relationship with him that she does and wants to spend time with him.. but at the same time i miss his little giggles and big smiles when he isnt home!

I can sleep when I'm dead

weeekends for me normally mean .. late nights and late mornings but this weekend not so much!
yesterday i was up at 7:20am and getting ready to run out the door.. first we headed to a new (to us) park.. a promise we made wyatt the day before, the playground equipment was nice and i really think wyatt had a good time as much as i believe owen would have a blast there (no owen wasnt with us).. however i was forced into *bench mom* mode due to the park rules of *no over 12 years old on equipment* and as much as i hate to admit it, i dont think i could have passed for a 12 year old. and of course i didnt have my owen to chase or assist in going down slides etc, so yeah *bench mom mode* i had to be in ..
after a bit of wyatt playing in the park, we headed on the small nature trail they had there. it was a nice walk .. Clyde seemed to enjoy it, yes he was with us, he loves going with us and we try to include him as much as we can when we are heading out. wish we could find local dog parks but my search has come up empty so far, so we have been sticking to trail walks with him.
once we got done at the new park, we headed into jacksonville to do a bit of car shopping for mother, found a few that we are going to look at tomorrow with her, one is a durango we have already seen the other is a kia minivan that the dealer is supposed to bring up from wilmington but we will see if they get it up there tomorrow or not. both have their share of benefits and their share of bends as well when it comes to her wish list of wants in her new to her vehicle. the one thing i dont like is she is *putting it off on us* as in saying *well if you think its worth it* argh its not what we want or what we think, its what she wants and what she thinks..
i truly though dislike car dealer vultures and being a saturday in jacksonville they were all swarming. well all except for the first dealership we stopped at. which gives that lot *bonus* points in my book. the man we talked with also wasnt your typical over hair gel'd way to much cologne kinda sales man so that also put a mark in the bonus box for me.. funny what things end them getting bonuses huh?
we did stop at one local dealer that had a few vehicles we saw online that we were interested in looking at and they were your typical down home dealer.

when we got home it was time for me to get busy working on the redneck greenhouse, time to take it apart for the spring and go threw my plants to see who survived the winter and who was beyond my abilities to make green and pretty again. unfortunately this winter on the redneck greenhouse wasnt a good one.. i had ended up having to loan mother my greenhouse heater and ended up having a harder time getting my plants watered due to things being put out there that couldnt get wet.. it was a mess of a winter so i guess i should be impressed with all that made it threw huh?
i think this summer im going to be a bit more picky on what i purchase though.. going to stick with my taller tropical type plants that i love so much, the ones that i know where i would put in a house that had good light vs the gloomy cave of a house we live in now.
wyatt and i worked on the redneck greenhouse destruction until it started to get dark, needless to say todays *to do* list is to finish up the greenhouse destruction, laundry, my clydes weekly bath and washing the van (inside and out).. the guys just headed out to change the something or other in the boat motor with a friend (oil maybe? i cant remember) and do all that fun stuff getting it ready for summer!!

love love love my hubba

today ron made me a special lunch .. steak and lobster tail. he cooked it out on the grill and it was oh so yummy! why the special lunch? because he loves me *smiles*.. hes always looking for ways to make me feel special.. always keeps me smiling and laughing and always does even the littlest of things to make me know how much he loves me! im just so lucky to have him to spend my life with!!

as for dinner tonight i think we will go *short order cook* and let the kids decide what they want.. we have a ton of frozen pizzas, hotdogs etc that they can pick from and i will just *whip it up quick and simple* as for tomorrow night, ron has a pork tenderloin in the slow cooker with some sweet baby rays bbq sauce .. it has to cook for 11 long hours on low so that tomorrow night we can have some bbq sandwiches *yumm* oh how i love that my dh loves to cook, i swear he does just as much if not more of the cooking than i do.

now me i like to bake.. which would be why right now the house is filling with the smell of home made banana bread *yumm* im sure it wont last long .. but it never does around my boys.. i still need to get the stuff to make the ice cream cake with wyatt, sounds like a good hot summer day desert.
my guys love to cook and i love cooking with them.. i hope owen enjoys it as much as the bigger boys do..

little ron just got home from fishing, looks like he lost the top part of one of his rods again .. i think this time he needs to hold onto the bottom this time though, last time he caught the top just after he got rid of the bottom.

im a bit confused on where to consider myself ttc wise.. i started spotting this morning which you cant count as cd1.. i know the hope is gone for this cycle but there is always that part that makes you want to hold onto the hope that maybe its just first tri spotting.. yeah i know its not, im not completely insane .. but its still not enough to technically be considered cd1 so i suppose to be true to my charting i have to wait for tomorrow to be an actual cd1.. *blah*
this cycle though, im going to do better at temping and im going to toss some OPKs in there as well.. why does ttc have to be so hard sometimes? its an emotional roller coaster i wouldnt wish on anyone and a journey that sometimes seems never ending. i try my best to stay positive during it all but somedays are easier than others..

stuck in limbo!!

well i am like .. lets count here on day 4 of being late for the old hag.. so i finally told dh this morning that i was late..
now you have to understand how the ttc brain works specially when you have been threw this so many times (such as i have)
the hag time approaches and you start looking for glimmers of hope.. anything.. grasping at strings of the thinnest materials... and for me this means *if there is hope there is the hag to crush your hope*
if you make it threw the hope stage.. next is dreaming.. ah the lovely day dreams of all dreams.. you start thinking about your little one.. will it be a boy or a girl.. how quick will them pretty pink lines on your hpt come up?? what wondrous ways can you tell family and friends.. should you just blurt it out or do something super cute? .. and this for me means *the hag is here to crush your every dream as she dances on it sticking her tongue out and saying "nanner nanner nanner"*
now if you make it past that stage.. than you muster up the courage to tell your hubba.. so you go into wherever they are and you share your news *honey im late* now if your ttc this is an awesome time for your man.. you do hugs and kisses and all that jazz.. and than .. yes the hag shows because she cant be unfair occasionally she has to crush the dreams of your hubba too, after all its only fair right?

so here i was.. going through the stages of ttc.. and no hag.. okay stage 2 .. nope no hag.. stage 3.. still no hag

but now there is this kink in my road.. my sweet loving hubba asks the old guy to pick us up a pregnancy test ..
now can i die? smack myself in the head.. kick him in the ass or something? yeah i know baby the old guy was going anyway but he is the LAST person i want buying me a hpt.. and of course this isnt discussed with me until AFTER hes already on his way .. thanks dear!! no pressure huh? i kinda prefer to do my own hpts on my own time with just you and i knowing. i mean its hard enough to have to see a bfn do you really want people looking at you weird when you see one??

anyways..so old guy comes in and im a mess.. this isnt what i wanted.. im in NO hurry to test.. i know its gonna be a bfn.. its not fmu and i been drinking.. not holding my pee nothing.. but yeah hun go pee on a stick we need to know.. the response from my hubba..
so i poas and of course BFN.. no hag.. but a bfn.. could it be to early? maybe my numbers are running slow.. maybe its because i had deluted urine.. who knows but yeah a bfn i saw..
still no hag and im still in limbo.. gonna re-test in a few days if the hag doesnt show and i will be using fmu.. but until than can someone please tell the old guy to stop looking at me weird?

and another trip to sams

twice in the same day i must be doing something wrong *lol*
actually mother decided she would run tonight and get a few things from sams and i said i would go with .. of course, once the kiddos heard sams everyone was ready to head out the door *lol*
stopped at burger king to get the kids something to eat since it was going on dinner time and we were also hoping to let some of the traffic from camp lejeune go by since it was about time for the flood gates to open and everyone to be heading off base and home for the night.
than we stopped at petsmart and mother picked up a fountain for her kitty tanner.. apparently this past winter when they were in colorado visiting aunt b, tanner got a bit spoiled in the fresh water department and now refuses to drink out of a water dish.. mother has been having to turn on faucets so he can get a drink and that was getting old quick, plus mothers logic is that with the money she will save in her water bill it will be no time before the fountain pays for itself *haha*
i picked up a huge bone for my clyde and a new bed since he outgrew his other one.. funny though i find him sleeping next to me on the couch instead of on his new comphy bed. ah who am i kidding hes spoiled and im the one that created the lap dog when he was very small but i love my big lap dog!! even all of his snores and drools and yes he can do both very very well!
after petsmart it was over to sams .. i picked up a few more things but not much.. some strawberrys for the old religious one since tomorrow is the wildabeasts birthday and he wants a strawberry short cake.. plus a few more items that ron asked me to pick up for him. the freezers are all now over stuffed and life is good *smiles*
got the kids settled after some time to unwind and now everyone is asleep but me... i suppose i need to move that way myself, just trying to figure out where in the room to put clydes new big bed where no one will trip over it.. guess for tonight it will go where ever i can put it and than tomorrow we can decide where to put it for good.

sams

went to sams this morning and did our first round of shopping today, while i will admit that the sticker shock got me as it normally does, i equally have to admit that we did rather well, the what seemed like endless trips into the house was proof of that.
i have to say my favorite finds today were the fresh fruit.. i love fresh fruit and bought 6 pounds of strawberries, 6 pounds of grapes, and 6 pounds of bananas.. *yumm* wyatt is my monkey and can eat bananas like nothing.. little ron will dig into the strawberries.. and all 3 boys will chow endlessly on the grapes!
diapers wise we picked up huggies, guess i will try them again and see how they go this time, but the price was to good of a deal to pass up. all in all it was a good trip and im looking forward to more shopping at sams as well as more savings!
Owen was such a good boy today too, i was so proud of him, although he did *pout* when daddy put the hot dogs back.. yeah take a wild guess on who has who wrapped around whose finger because them hot dogs ended up back in the cart after someone saw a certain pouty lip and it wasnt me *lol*
looks like i will be making the trip again this evening since mother wants to run out and get a few things and figure i would tag along and show her the great deals that we found.. plus it gives her some company and me something to do other than the normal.. laundry laundry laundry.
mr clyde was super excited to see us when we got home. such a sweet boy, ron took him with him earlier this morning when he had to run out but sams isnt a place he can ride with to, he would be stuck in the car for to long and we dont like leaving him like that.. specially with the warmer weather coming or even the colder.. its different if we are sitting with him in the car (like if ron runs in really quick and i wait with clyde) but as for leaving him alone .. yeah not gonna happen. i think this week little ron and i will start making time to walk clyde in the evenings, the weather is finally getting nicer and my clyde loves his nightly walks even though they wear him out! such a lazy dog he is after all.
the bigger boys of course are back in school and seem to be enjoying being back with their friends during the day. of course if you were to ask them they would probably tell you that they could do without the homework at night.
well i suppose not much else to add for now, but im sure i will find more later.

last few minutes of spring break

yep thats right after a week of my alarm being off, it finds itself set to go off at 6am in the morning..
the bigger boys will head back to school tomorrow while Ron, myself, and Owen will find ourselves heading to sams club. we havent been members for years and this weekend we joined again so we are going to go deal hunting to see what we can find. so far i have found that diapers are cheaper along with quite a few other things, grant it though we are paying a bit more up front but for more quantity wise so in the end its cheaper. to bad they dont sell clydes dog food there but at least its right across from a pet smart and we can run in and grab that really quick, well that and i still have some coupons for it. hey every little bit helps right?
Both wyatt and owen were super excited to get home this evening, they came running into the house wide open and ready to say hello to everyone and have a few minutes of running around and yapping before getting ready to get settled for bed. Wyatt picked out what new shirt he wants to wear to school tomorrow so no guessing for me in the morning on if i grabbed the right one or not, not that he ever seems to mind what i grab for him early in the morning but you know new shirts mean he has to wear something new.. no worries though, i made him promise not to get a girlfriend and replace me just yet.
Ron happened to jump on my laptop yesterday morning and spotted some old photos of the boys and couldnt believe that they have grown up so much, hes now forbidding owen to get bigger.. i hate to break it to him but he is going to get bigger no matter if we like it or not. i do miss them being small though, seems like one minute your snuggle'n on the couch with your little one and the next minute they are taller than you, it almost leaves you wondering *where did the last 16 or even 8 years go* your simply left with a ton of memories and a kid who is growing up to fast before your eyes.. so my best advice, hold on to them as long as you can.. take all the hugs and kisses they are willing to give and embrace every snuggle you get..

productive sunday

went out and got the inside of the van cleaned up and the middle seats put back in where they belong.. the outside we will do when the pollen settles down a bit, for not its just washing her off regularly, but it almost seems pointless to do that. of course im still trying to figure out how we are going to reach the top of the van.. maybe a ladder?
came in the house and relaxed for a few before washing clyde, than gave him his fish oil pills.. weve upped him to 3 a day due to his weight gain. i need to go online tomorrow and order his new shampoo from that pet place the vet told me about. www.petedge.com .. it has awesome deals on pet shampoos etc and i mean can one really pass up a gallon of pet shampoo for just $24.00.. compare that to what you spend at walmart or petsmart for the small bottles.
now im waiting for the younger boys to come home from mothers house. i think next weekend i will tackle the redneck green house and get the plastic taken down and see what plants i can save.
i feel horrible that so many were neglected this winter but it couldnt be helped. i do however think i will cut down on my plants for now and be very picky on the ones i buy, if i can think of where in the house to stick it, than it can come home with me, if not, than it stays at the store and will admire it when i go there *lol*

its a blah kind of day..

i had considered going out and cleaning the van today.. but figured i will do it tomorrow, the sun is slowing going down and im just to *blah* to go out there and scrub like a crazy lady..
thinking about tossing a pizza in the oven and just bouncing around the web for a bit although it seems the web is kind of dead today as well.
at least i managed to message back my dear friend blue who i have been so horrid on keeping in contact with lately.. shes a sweet woman who lives in west virginia that i *met* years ago on the HGTV dream home message board and pretty much the only one i have kept in contact with on a regular basis over the years.. i did a few others as well but slowly lost contact with them and well of course with the secondary message board being shut down it didnt help keeping in contact with anyone.
blue and i keep in contact threw private message over at hgtv and our pms are 80 posts strong for this run of them *lol* maybe its time we start a new one going *lol* she really is a great lady and a good friend!! always puts a smile on my face when i see shes had the time to respond back, even though i know her life has its hectic times like anyone elses.. *hugs to you blue* if you ever have had the time to come peek at my blog ~~
late last night i was talking to my *sister* sue via facebook messenger thingy and she was discussing her son and continue'ing on with his home schooling.. i told her of the wonderous ladies at the moms board who home school and she signed up *smiles* im so happy that she did, i think she will gain a wealth of information from these ladies and learn lots of stuff from them.
i still see the huge potential in home schooling your children although i do prefer a cross of home schooling and unschooling.. but i am one of the seemingly few whose kids are offered awesome public schools to go to and i am confident in our decision to keep them in public schools.. i can honestly say its one of the few things that keep us in the area we live in.
i find it kind of funny that when i was in high school i could have cared less about the school in general but now as a parent i cant help but insist my kids get the best educations possible to them. and yes our schools are some of the best!
oh well this isnt getting my pizza in the oven now is it?
i wonder.. can anyone see how board i am? *lol*

why is it...

that on a seemingly normal lazy saturday afternoon the wildabeast insists on being in his asshole mode?
im tired of it.. oh so tired of it and although we find ourselves stuck in this house of characters for now, i just wish for once if any of them wanted to be in a *mood* unlike the rest of the house that they would go lock themselves in their room (or in his case his cave) and leave the rest of us be to enjoy our peace and what not that the day has to offer..
no i will not get my undies in a bunch over a few holes being ripped out of the top of the shower curtain because someone tugged it to hard and the holes ripped threw, this is NORMAL and will happen when you buy the cheapest of the cheap.. not undie bunching worthy..
and no i will not freak out if something is out of place as he sees it, im more likely to freak out if im hunting something down that i know i placed in one certain spot and the wildabeast moved it because it wasnt where he thought it should be..
dude go outside so i can douse you with the hose and cool your butt off.. im dont with your pettiness and my dear sweet owen who is only a year acts more mature than you do.. soo *pfft* to you!

clydes mystery rash update

first of all i want to say that i LOVE our vet! she is awesome..
we took clyde in to the vet on Tuesday (yeah a late update *sorry*) for his mystery rash that appeared the week before .. tuesday was the earliest the vet could get us in and it just being a rash, it wasnt a rush think.. we were told to bath him daily until the appointment and thats what i was doing.
anyways, we get into the vet and clyde is his normal happy self.. he met a small bulldog who got super excited as well and puked all over the floor (poor pup) according to the vet the bulldog does it all the time so it wasnt clyde induced (nice to know).
first thing first, get clyde on the scale, i swear he is part woman because he refuses to know his weight, the scale is always a war and no help when the vet assistance come out to say *hello* to my puppy.. the assistant than took her place behind the partial wall so we could get our clyde on the scale, his weight 130 pounds 4 ounces.. can we say MOOSE? and still more growing to go!! not to mention he is all muscle and no fat!
after that we got him into the exam room where he didnt want to lay down (they of course do his exams on the floor as the table yeah not going there).. the vet was finally able to get a look at his rash and turns out the mystery rash was hives!
from how the hives looked its a bite probably spider bite induced hives, so she gave him a shot to clear it up..
she also said that we need to keep benadryl on hand for him because once he has the hives chances are he will get them again and if we catch it in the first few hours we can control it with benadryl.. a higher does than a person would take and ever 8-12 hours.
we did discuss with her shampoos because the dry skin is back (hes back on his fish oil pills for that) and she told us to keep him on them for good.. fish oil will keep the oils in his skin good.. but she said shampoo wise to go threw this online store where we can get oatmeal based soap free shampoo for a real good price ($24.00 for a gallon of it) so we are going to order that.
she said the normal *stuff that adds moisture etc will only last at most an hour* which is the same as flea shampoos etc..
anyways, our big boy is on the mend and his rash is slowly going away, she said we would see it go away opposite of how it came in.. so now we just are keeping and eye on him.

shopping ...

those who know me know that i hate and i mean HATE shopping with a passion..
however i do love sales shopping and shopping for my boys! which is what took me to jcpenny today..
awesome sales this weekend (although im semi kicking myself in the ass because my hubba told me as i walked in the door that there is an additional 15% off starting tomorrow and for tomorrow only) but i refuse to let it kill my *buzz* of the deals i did find today..
each boy got a ton of what they needed and i have prepared all for the *can we go swimming* days with new swim suits for summer. and my total spent, just under $250 but the best was that we saved over $300.. i love saving more than i spend in cash..
now when we hit the outlet mall whenever good old NC uncle sam decides we are worthy of our return check (although they keep reassuring that there is no delay *cough cough bullshit cough*) it wont be so horrid scary as i thought it would be.. still going to check out a few of the stores that i had planned on and this means.. NEW SHOES
okay i admit it, im not a shoe whore by no means.. i believe i can still count on one hand how many pairs i own and wear but i love my sketchers and want 2 pairs this time around.. one sandles for summer and the other well that will be known when i browse the many pairs to choose from *lol*
oh yeah i suppose each of the boys will need new summer shoes too but they can wait for now, im hoping i can get wyatt and owen into sketchers shoes but we shall see.. if not there is a new *wide foot* shoe store near the mall we will hit. im still upset that big dogs is not longer there.. maybe we will make a trip to the Burlington outlet for that store as i heard there is one of them at that one.. ah to dream.
in other news...
this is the kids last weekend of being in spring break, im sure neither is looking forward to school monday morning but its okay they will survive, ron and i are going to hit sams club either monday or tuseday and check out what deals we can find there, ive already checked out diaper cost and its much cheaper than walmart.. maybe sams will be our new hundred dollar store? i will let you know after we really dig in there and check things out price wise.
not sure of any weekend plans as of yet, probably the same old same other than me getting the van cleaned up, something i have wanted to do all week long but havent gotten around to yet.
i cant remember if i updated on clydes vet visit.. i will read and check and than update that if i hadnt.. and of course anything else i can think of..

Freebies

okay i admit it, ive always been a freebie freak.. but had to take some time off to *reconnect* and *rethink* what kind of things i want.. because after all to many freebies can land you on a show about being knee deep in clutter and i surely dont want that.
so upon entering the freebie world again i decided its time for me to be careful of what i enter to get.
i have started following a freebie queen on facebook (i will have to look up her name to point you in the exact direction) and quickly became a fan of her page..
so far what i have received is a *sports bottle* from marlboro (no logo on it which in a way kind of sucks) ...
but i am waiting on so much more..
a pair of socks from no nonsense .. a pair of socks from hue.. a multi purpose tool from Copenhagen .. various pens and cups from another company (we will see if i get these).. a cleaning caddy from another company (another we will see if i get).. a personalized key chain (we will see if i get).. etc etc etc.
im trying to stay away from the little things .. travel sized/sample sized shampoos that never get used, travel/sample sized deodorants and the such because these are the things that in my home never get used and just take up space.

my grandmother once told me that *everything should have a place and if you dont know where your going to put it than dont buy it* and im making that rule apply with my freebie addiction as well. if i know it wont be used or where i would put it, than im not gonna send off for it.

day 3 of the bigger boys spring break

took the kids (all 3) to the park this afternoon.. funny how plans of just taking a nice little neighborhood walk find you at the park and than at burger king.. now how does that happen??
first we headed to the park, owen was more than dying to spend some time outside and i got this great idea in my head *buy balls and go play at the park near the baseball/soccer fields and the kids will have a blast*.. visions of playing horse with little ron on the basketball courts as wyatt and owen ran around having fun.. owen playing in the grass and wyatt bouncing between the grass and practicing his new trick of dribbling the ball..
yeah not so much, the wind was horrid and we kept having to chase owens balls which were flying away from him faster than his little legs could run.. so after a few we gave this up and walked over to the small park.
things i learned while at the small park playing on the playground equipment..
bench moms look at you weird when you go down the slide and Owen prefers the slides over anything else the park had to offer..
swings were quickly a huge *no* from him as he made it very clear he was having none of that contraption i put him in.. but slides.. slides were the bomb! and yes those *bench moms* could gawk all they wanted about my butt going down the bumpy, curvy, and straight slides but my baby was laughing his butt off and it was oh so worth hearing every little giggle that came out of my cute little guy!
of course it was these same gawking bench moms that gasped as i gently put owen down the slide alone with his big brother at the end to catch.. but again he was laughing at the end.. didnt want to do it to often on his own but hey he tried ~
Wyatt made some friends and was quickly running around the park with them and playing some game.. little ron was at first trying to play the bench warmer but it didnt last long as i knew it wouldnt, he might be 16 but i have raised him to *have fun while you can* and i suppose when your mom is playing on the playground equipment its best to just go ahead and join in.. after all you only have two options.. crawl under the bench your warming or play too and surely playing too is so much more fun!!
after the park we decided to head to burger king for dinner.. and of course more playing!!
OMG i bought died laughing.. this is first of all the very first time my Owen has ever attempted to go into the twists and turns of the BK play toy thing.. but he did it, right along with wyatt.. it was a proud moment for me!
however he wouldnt go down the slide or in to far.. he kept looking back to see if i was still there and if his escape route out of this maze of tubes he was crawling in remained clear and open and within eye sight.. a few times he would round a curve and not be able to look back but he would giggle with joy as he saw me threw one of the many peep holes!!
of course little ron couldnt let his brothers have all the fun.. yep next thing i know there went my oldest up and in *hahaha* ooh and dont worry yeah i know there is that *age limit* on these contraptions but i know for a fact that they are made to hold a lot more weight as its the workers jobs to crawl threw and clean them and although im sure they dont do it often enough, i do know it is done from time to time.
anyways.. so of course my little ron was trying to convince me to crawl in and had it not been so obvious i would have been there in a heart beat but yeah way to obvious and how horrid would it be getting my kids kicked out of burger king because i was playing in the toy? so i told him *no* .. another day, another time, a bit less obvious and im game!! so if you happen to spot someone much much to old crawling threw one.. it might just be me!! so dont tattle just come on in... i wont tell if you dont *wink wink*
after burger king it was time to head home *blah* but at least the wildabeast took owen out back for a bit, i was helping mother with her computer..
the woman is going to drive me insane *haha*
first of all i had her run her scans (virus and what not) and explained that either she needs them set up to be done on a regular time or she needs to do them from time to time on her own.. i know one of her scans she hadnt bothered to do for 30 days .. crazy lady!
than we looked at vehicles for her, yes she is about ready to buy a new (to her) car.. she isnt sure exactly what she wants but she has given me her price range, her wish list of must haves etc.. but why oh why can she not understand that although i have found everything she could want and a few extras, why must she come back with *i dont like the color* and when i explain that color wise she has to deal with what we find for her .. i get *no i dont* okay than go to the car lot, finance something brand new with your small down payment (lets face it her max spending amount is small compared to todays car prices when looking brand new) and special order whatever color you want. funny she never likes my answer..
but seriously whats more important the quality of the car she is looking at or the color of it? because she can tell me a color and i will find her every (lets say blue) minivan on the for sale sites and she can choose which shade she wants.. POS or not..
and while im complaining about mother, why does she have to make comments about my gray hair? yes i know i have gray hair and i love my gray hairs.. i do not try to color or hide them or anything else and they arent new to me.. ive found them before and can show you where they come in more than anywhere else.. it doesnt bother me but when she is behind me making sly comments about them and i call her on it, she acts all dumb saying things like *i wasnt saying anything about them* well yeah you were i heard you!!
oh and also .. just because i have internet and we are wireless this does not make me an expert on it.. so if you have them *experts can only answer* questions.. please call who your looking at. i know NOTHING about embark, ive never used them, dont know how they put your stuff in or anything like that. so call them and ask dont expect me to know all the answers .. about the only thing your going to get out of me is *do you really need another bill of X amount of money before you have even found a job?* i mean seriously.. she isnt working yet (still collecting unemployment from her job loss due to company relocation) and thats fine.. but shouldnt she want to decrease her bills (like stop paying for all those extras on her satellite that she dont use) vs adding more bills?
and she wonders why i have gray hairs..

i will not be responsible for my actions..

so i finally get to find my way to the bed last night.. i knew it was going to be a late night as Owen had napped much to late in the day but he was sleeping so good in his new big boy bed i couldnt just walk in and wake him up. of course if it got way to late i would have woken him up but we were good so i just waited it out a bit.
once i got owen to bed and wyatt to bed and than little ron moved to his bed, i took a few mom minutes and relaxed from the day before heading off to my bed. visited a few message boards i havent in a long time.. not that i was missed from them but thats okay, i didnt expect to be, i was never a huge poster at one and the other i hadnt been for a very long time.
anyways.. i finally get to bed and drift off to lala land only to have owen wake me up at some horrid hour in the morning .. somewhere between 2am and 3am.. so i tucked him in bed next to me only to feel him crawling over my head a few minutes later, apparently he wanted the middle last night, i wasnt going to argue, after all i was half asleep..
come to find out the reason for his early morning wake up.. the early morning wake up of the child who was sleeping oh so well in his new big boy bed when i went to sleep ... CLYDE!
apparently my 4 legged love, decided that he was tried of sleeping on his puppy bed and decided that the new big boy bed was just the right size for his butt. so he went ahead and nosed owen awake so that owen would come to our bed and than climbed his furry butt into owens big boy bed..
oh my sweet clyde who i love so much.. this isnt going to work, you see this is OWENS bed.. not clydes and if you do this again i will not be responsible for my actions.
so please stay on your puppy bed and leave his big boy bed alone.

is it bedtime yet?

*argh* im beyond ready for bed.. but something tells me due to owens late nap, he is no where near ready to crawl up into his bed.. figures huh? the nights your oh so tired, the kiddos have different plans.
at least everyone is showered and/or had a bath, had their small bowl of ice cream and are now laying down resting and hopefully will drift off to lala land soon.. well all but owen who is still making his rounds.
he seems to love his new big boy bed which is a good thing, however he didnt make it all night in it last night. i had a feeling he wouldnt though, it was pretty late (for him) when he got home and he was so busy with the excitement of being home that he didnt really get into the whole bed thing. i mainly was just trying to make sure he knew there was a big boy bed where his crib used to be because i was afraid he would try to stand up on me in the middle of the night and end up busting his head. today however, it was the best thing since sliced bread! he was all about his bed and even showing it off to whomever would come check it out. nap wise he did awesome in it and wasnt in a hurry to get out of it when he woke up.. he just kinda laid there and chilled for a few minutes.
ive also learned today that my owen is addicted to white chocolate.. ever try to break apart white chocolate easter bunnies so that he can have bits his size?
tomorrow is a busy day.. a trip to the hundred dollar store and of course my clydes vet appointment. still hoping that it ends up being something small and easy to take care of. but i suppose we will find out tomorrow what the mystery rash is.
well its looking like my owen wants to snuggle now.. so off to lala land he shall go .. i hope!

after midnight..

and im fixing to head off to lala land ~
tonight is Owens first night in his big boy bed so lets hope he likes it...
mother brought him and wyatt home tonight at the normal time which was fine, but why did she agree to store my crib for me and than toss a small fit about *how big it is* when in reality its the same size as any other crib. she even went on and on about *how it wouldnt fit where she was going to put it* and how *little rons crib was so much smaller*
first of all.. little rons crib was bigger not smaller (it converted to a single bed this one does not) and this one is no different size wise than any other crib on the market..
finally i just tossed my hands in the air and told her if it was that huge of a problem now i would just go get it later this week and shove the damn thing in storage. to which she responded *oh no we dont want it to get ruined being wood and all* well gee mom thats why i asked you to store it in your house for me but damn i dont want to put you out. hell she has plenty of room to stick it away where it will be out of sight from the world around her..
it just kind of ticks me off that she would start off bitching and complaining knowing i have to get it out of this house or the old religious one will try to snag it for the church and i really dont want to get into that whole argument with her that we are trying for baby number 4.. after all we all know how thrilled she was with babies 2 and 3.. im sure baby 4 will cause her major chest pains!!
than leave it to my mother to make a comment *well i know you wont be trying much longer but we dont want to get rid of it just incase*
um okay..
first of all there is no *we* in this when it comes to you and i, i have a lifetime of trying to figure out whey she feels that her and i are the same person and sometimes it drives me nuts when she starts her *we* stuff.. just as i dont need to know how *we* are going to pay one of her bills and *we* dont have my friends coming to visit *us* yet she seems to think that when they do its one of her *we* things..
secondly.. only ron and i will decided when we are ready to stop ttc.. if i want to keep it going until im 85 years old (yes i know impossible) thats up to US .. i know how old i am.. i know how old my husband is.. but despite what she or anyone thinks its our choice to try or not..
i just hate it when people think they have control over my ttc.. hell i dont even have control over having a baby im going to be damned if im going to allow anyone else (other than ron of course) have a say in what we are deciding to do. my other favorite statement from tonight from her is...
*well now that you dont have room for a crib since you put up the toddler bed, maybe you will get pregnant sooner* uh lady, it takes 9 months to *grow* a baby.. and on top of that have no fear .. regardless of what room we have things will be rearranged and there will be plenty of room for me to put a crib up if im so lucky as to see that bfp!

some days i just want to bash my head against the wall ~

Ron made it home a little after 2pm today and laid down for a while.. hes up now so it looks like another night of sleeping alone maybe? or maybe he will come back to bed after he is up for a bit ..
no huge plans for tomorrow (aka today) and than finally tues.. clydes vet day!

happy fluffy bunny day!!

last night *little* ron and i put together owens new big boy (toddler) bed, its sometimes hard for me to swallow that he is getting so big so fast.. but i think he will love his new bed.
one thing i learned when doing these projects, is its easy to get your 16 year old undies in a bunch when he is helping you.. but how could you help but not laugh when working on the worst part of the bed and your love'n clyde wants some attention so he proceeds to be oh so helpful and get right in the thick of things *hahaha*
all in all it was good fun.. lots of laughing and even some wanting to scream.. i dunno who manufactures these things but they really need to rethink how they do. but we got it together and the crib taken down.
ive been bathing clyde daily per vet orders until our appointment on tues. im really concerned about his mysterious rash and wondering what is causing it, i guess we need to stop google'n and what not and just wait it out until tues.
thankfully he dont seem to be to upset over it, hes not scratching and dont seem to be bothered by it at all. so thats a good thing!
of course this morning the fluffy bunny visited, and left 3 nicely filled easter baskets for the boys.. wyatt and owen will get theres later tonight when they get home from mothers house .. but easter has never been a big deal for us.
we arent the religious type and other than a visit from the fluffy bunny our day is spent doing the normal lazy hazy sunday things..

irritated by stupid people

okay so the powers that be called and told ron he didnt have to leave town last night *woohoo* but of course tonight (for just tonight) he has to, cool we can do that although i still think its a waste of gas, its do'able.. so than ron informs me that he has to come home sunday and go straight to bed because the powers that be want him somewhere sunday night as well (this means a few hour nap before being gone another 8 hours) im not happy about this but i guess if he says he can do it, he can do it right?
so i dont say much of nothing, just some silent cussing to myself (after all the powers that be arent doing anything why cant one of them take the 8 local hours oh yeah they are the powers that be that right *rolls eyes*)...
so than he wakes me up as he climbs into bed for a few hour nap before he has to leave and is venting at me about now his night will last longer than normal but he dont have to do the sunday night gig for the powers that be..
do what huh?
okay so basically..
the place he is going is closed on easter sunday and so they wont be back until monday morning at 9am.. now while the old guy is his relief, he just cant miss easter sunday at church now can he??
so he isnt going to relieve him until about 4pm sunday night..
so let me get this right, you have to be up no later than 5pm to be there by 8pm to hang out in an empty parking lot until 4pm tomorrow if the old guy gets there by than (which i doubt seeing as he wont get out of church until at least 1pm and than get his stuff loaded than the 2 hour drive)..
am i getting this right?
so now my hubba is going to be up for 23 hours straight plus 2 hours drive time puts it at 25 hours straight are you nuts??
of course when i point out the basic math of things i hear from the old religious one that *the old guy is pulling just as many hours as ron is* uh excuse me.. lets do the math..
old guy is going to be up at 1pm to go in (i will not count his choice church thing) than he gets off at 9am monday morning.. 20 hours .. 22 hours if he chooses to drive home that morning or is he staying up there? if so its just 20 hours.

now i will admit the old guy is much older .. but lets add in the kicker of the whole damn thing..

the old guy is the one who agreed to these hours!! when i said *well the powers that be need to put someone else in there to help cover that mid shift, they need to have ron out of there at 9am and than the old guy not there till 8pm (leaving with time for driving there)*.. and i get told *well they asked the old guy if they wanted someone else of if they wanted the hours!!
and he said *yess* omg are you flipping serious? he agreed to this? it was his choice?? and he said *yeah we want them without even talking to the one who is going to be shoved there longer? and without being able to prepare himself for so many hours up in a row?*
yeah im pissed..
im just hoping that ron will stop and get a quick nap before he leaves out of there tomorrow.. but with the fact he bought 4 5hr energys im not holding my breath on him not pushing it home...

argh.. why do people have to be so stupid? and why does the person who you are bitching at about it throw up at you that this is the same thing the old guy is doing.. not take credit to the fact that HE ASKED FOR IT where as my hubba didnt, my hubba said *why dont so and so take the middle?* yeah whatever lady.. he wants to kill himself thats fine but id rather my dh didnt..
of course leave it to her to ask my husband what he wants for easter dinner, he gives ideas and of course has to say *dont bother i wont be here anyway* yeah because of the old guy..
grr grr grr bitch bitch bitch
oh and it took everything in me not to smack her when she gave me an attitude and told me *well he could tell them no* and left it at that, yeah who they gonna call than? the old guy and there goes your precious church service with him all together.. stupid religious lady!!!

well i get to keep my hubba one more night *smiles*

the powers that be called him today and told him to call before he headed out the door and when he did, he was told that he only has to leave town for tomorrow night. so yep no sleeping alone in my bed tonight *woohoo*
in other news our clyde has gotten a mystery rash *insert sad face* .. not sure what it is or how he got it, called the vet today and they will see him on tuseday until than its daily baths for clyde (per vets orders) so im fixing to get to that in just a few minutes. luckly he dont seem to be in any discomfort and he isnt itching.. i just hope it ends up being much of nothing.. poor puppy though.
went and picked up Owens big boy bed tonight, plus a new mattress maybe now he will want to spend more time in his bed. on my to-do list tomorrow is to take down the crib and get it ready for storage and put up his big boy bed .. fun! i cant wait until he sees his new bed, lets just hope he loves it.. and lets hope that clyde dont look at it as an open invitation to sleep in owens bed *lol* although im sure owen wouldnt mind one bit, he loves his clyde!
we also picked up a few puppy toys for chris's puppy and dropped them off to him on our way home. Wyatt got to see her for the first time and i think she really likes the little things we had for her. ah what can i say? im a sucker for babies.. 2 legged or 4!

today was my nephew brandons 16th birthday!! Happy Birthday Brandon.. hope you had an awesome day hun!
well i suppose its time to snuggle my hubba for a few minutes and than hit the showers with my clyde and get his friday night bath done before the night runs away from me and it turns into Saturday.

looks like im packing him up.. again

ron went to get two new tires for the front of the van and called me to tell me that he got a call from the powers that be, that they need him to go out of town yet again. so now i have to get him packed up, the van loaded up and him ready to go by tomorrow afternoon.. i am beginning to wonder if this will ever end. i mean come on people here we are week 2 that he shouldnt be leaving and of course he is leaving.
on the positive side, at least he is only going for 2 days (1 night) and will be home sometime on sunday. the poor guy once he gets rested again, hes back at long late nights and little sleep. it just sucks!
in other news..
wyatt had his class easter egg hunt today! seems to have been a great day for it to.. the sun is shining and enough days have gone by since our last rain to absorb most all of the water on the ground. even our puddles in the low areas are beginning to look more like land and less like swamp land. of course ive probably just jinxed myself and will be seeing cloudy skies and thunderstorms now even though the weather man is still saying nothing but sunshine heading our way.
wyatt also had a pizza party at school today for their spring celebration. you know im not a religious person at all but damn it why cant they just say Easter? im not offended why should anyone else be? i dont think of easter in the religious sense.. i know its supposed to be all about god but i prefer to make it all about the bunny.. but it works for us and how we live. why cant others just look at it the same way? sure some will have that religious aspect of it but for those of us that dont.. make it all about the bunny!
little ron came home and went to his room.. i suspect he will be riding with the wildabeast to uncle chris's house.. chris called earlier and said that he needed some part that he didnt have (he borrowed some part off of little rons engine) now dont start thinking i can give specifics about engines and parts because i havent got a clue and no desire to learn either but all i know is they are supposed to run something to him and i know little ron will want to ride with because after all he is dying to see uncle chris's tootsie girl! but he still has to bring her by because i have one more boy that wants to meet his girl and i know one wildabeast who wont offer him to ride with because he dont like wyatt *sad face*

tomorrow is the last day of school for the boys .. monday kicks off spring break!! i hope the weather stays nice for us all so that when ron is home and around, we can maybe go do something..