now you have to understand how the ttc brain works specially when you have been threw this so many times (such as i have)
the hag time approaches and you start looking for glimmers of hope.. anything.. grasping at strings of the thinnest materials... and for me this means *if there is hope there is the hag to crush your hope*
if you make it threw the hope stage.. next is dreaming.. ah the lovely day dreams of all dreams.. you start thinking about your little one.. will it be a boy or a girl.. how quick will them pretty pink lines on your hpt come up?? what wondrous ways can you tell family and friends.. should you just blurt it out or do something super cute? .. and this for me means *the hag is here to crush your every dream as she dances on it sticking her tongue out and saying "nanner nanner nanner"*
now if you make it past that stage.. than you muster up the courage to tell your hubba.. so you go into wherever they are and you share your news *honey im late* now if your ttc this is an awesome time for your man.. you do hugs and kisses and all that jazz.. and than .. yes the hag shows because she cant be unfair occasionally she has to crush the dreams of your hubba too, after all its only fair right?
so here i was.. going through the stages of ttc.. and no hag.. okay stage 2 .. nope no hag.. stage 3.. still no hag
but now there is this kink in my road.. my sweet loving hubba asks the old guy to pick us up a pregnancy test ..
now can i die? smack myself in the head.. kick him in the ass or something? yeah i know baby the old guy was going anyway but he is the LAST person i want buying me a hpt.. and of course this isnt discussed with me until AFTER hes already on his way .. thanks dear!! no pressure huh? i kinda prefer to do my own hpts on my own time with just you and i knowing. i mean its hard enough to have to see a bfn do you really want people looking at you weird when you see one??
anyways..so old guy comes in and im a mess.. this isnt what i wanted.. im in NO hurry to test.. i know its gonna be a bfn.. its not fmu and i been drinking.. not holding my pee nothing.. but yeah hun go pee on a stick we need to know.. the response from my hubba..
so i poas and of course BFN.. no hag.. but a bfn.. could it be to early? maybe my numbers are running slow.. maybe its because i had deluted urine.. who knows but yeah a bfn i saw..
still no hag and im still in limbo.. gonna re-test in a few days if the hag doesnt show and i will be using fmu.. but until than can someone please tell the old guy to stop looking at me weird?
